My world...dreams and questions....

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Randomness is in the air....

From the past some days, I've been experiencing severe pain in my eyes. They feel so tired all the time. Perhaps I've been using them as "not" my eyes at all... It is the computer I guess.
  1. My work load
  2. My project
  3. My course books
  4. My friends
  5. My project partner
  6. My lecture notes
  7. My mom (these days)
  8. My word games
  9. Blogs
  10. orkut
  11. forums .....

WELL WELL WELL!! That's a huge list.... N that's to be done every single day... No wonder my eyes hav begun to feel so so so weak... aching all the time...
N then sleeping late....
There's possibly another cause for it, a wait... a cry ... an emptiness....
Will go to a doc soon.. I know a lot of spanking awaits me... :P

Neways, that's that... I'm tired... After a hectic day..... Life sucks!!
Shadows where r u dear? haven't seen u for quite a while...been missing u ... Peenuts can't seem to open ur blog...... Adi no new posts.... Happy birthday starry_nights....

It's been quite a while since i saw the night sky.. Reminds me of the terrace in India. I loved spending an hour of my day up there - alone with my friends the stars n moons.. Some one tell them I miss them a lot....

Koi lauta de mere beete hue din....

But then, I know 1 thing, time changes, n we have to change with time..... or well at least to some extent.... We have to live every single moment as it comes as there is none the same that would come again.

Why do I start elsewhere but always end up with philosophy?? Can someone answer that?

I m missing my mom. Life is so so incomplete when even 1 member has gone away. I hope time flies soon, n we'll all be a complete family. That makes me wonder how would I live away from my family later on???

Have been listening to Kabhi Alvida na Kehna.....
I wish it was just as simple as saying that .....
N I wish that was true....
kabhi alvida na kehne ki zaroorat hi na padhti toh kitna achcha hota...
Neways, that's life....

They say,

"Meeting n parting is the way of life,
Parting n meeting again is the hope of life...."

I like to believe that.

That was a lot of randomness in the air. I suppose I'd either get back to work or to sleep....

Tuesday, June 27, 2006


उस ढल रहे सूरज से पूछो
क्यूँ जाता है यूं छोड कर
उस निकलते हुए चाँद से पूछो
क्यूँ आता है किसी की याद ले कर

उन तारों की जगमगाहट में भी
अंधेरों में घिरे रेहते हैं हम
इटनी भीड के आस पास होते हुए भी
क्यूँ खुद को तन्हा पाते हैं हम

एक सफ़र में सफ़र कर रहे
रासते तो आगे बढते जाते हैं
उन बिछडी बातों की यादों में
हम उलटा कदम पीछे को बढाते हैं

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Monday, June 26, 2006


Well I am actually not sure what I am gonna write today... It is just that I am waiting for my partner, who was supposed to get back to me in about 10 minutes, n that was about an hour and a half back!! Or may be 2...
n what am I doing? still waiting!!
n this wait actually made me visit orkut... reply n msg some people out there... n then i took to reading those few blogs that i'd already visited in the morning (don't forget - it is night at my end... ;) ) ... found nothing new in 'em...
I hate waiting! Have been thinking i wouldn't wait for my guy (if he went away saying 10 minutes) this much!!
What is one supposed to do while waiting??
God's grace that I have this internet thingy to give me one thing or another to do ... while i m "waiting" ......
neways ... it is high time i quit now... coz he's even logged off now ... n i think isn't gonna return..
But isn't that rude??
Gosh! I hate waiting first, n second I hate it more when I know it is worthless...
Why don't people worry about their assignments? Why don't people value time?? Why don't people understand that 10 minutes mean 10 minutes? n why do they think that those who're waiting have nothing better to do than wait....
I too pissed off now...
I'd write something better pretty soon...

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Wow! Niagara....

So those are the amazing Niagara falls!
It was my second trip to Niagara... n i've loved it absolutely... Situated between the two friendly nations of US and Canada, they are a site worth visiting.

It was almost noon by the time we reached there- there was a chilly wind blowing. We watched the falls from a variety of angles. They provide a new look at every second angle. It is just so lovely...
There are 2 falls - one belonging to the US. There is a bit of an issue with that one. It doesn't have enough water in it. And secondly, it falls from the US side, so in a way, the Americans do not quite get a proper look of their own waterfalls! The pic above are the US falls.
The other ones - the more extravagant ones are the ones belonging to Canada. They are called the Horse Shoe falls. They are a U-shaped fall with mist filled in the "U" - and mist rising way above the falls. I wonder whether 2 words - absolutely amazing would be ok to describe the picturesque beauty the falls carry along with them. And it is such a wonder that the water doesn't seem to end. Keeps on flowing forever and ever and ever. Nor is the volume ever decreased...

The most exciting part of the journey is the "Maid of The Mist". That is a small ship which takes u in the lake n close to the falls.
Close to the falls is a breathtaking experience. one can feel the freshness of the mist on your face. I don't have a pic clicked from there coz there's a risk for the cameras.

This here is a pic of the horseshoe waterfalls.

The border line between US and Canada crosses from the waters of the lake. And there's a bridge called Rainbow Bridge which connects both these countries. We can actually cross the border just to see the falls from the other side.. But we don't need to ;)

We also went to a botanical garden, but that isn't something that interests me. Niagara falls also offer another great attraction during the night. It is the lighting of the falls and also on weekends - fireworks.
Here's a pic of 'em with the lighting. The pic is blurred coz of the reflections and night modes n other camera-related issues.
And finally, the fireworks. They are awesome. Fireworks are so so so exclusive. It is just a 10 minutes-or-so long drama. But it is beautiful. A perfect aura of colors brightening the nightsky which otherwise is made to be so dull .....

I am sure u must be feeling energized and refreshed after a lovely trip to Niagara with a perfect tour guide like me.. ;)

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

My personality...

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Thought for the day .. says

Thought of the Day:
Sit down and put down everything that comes into your head and then you're a writer. But an author is one who can judge his own stuff's worth, without pity, and destroy most of it. -Colette, writer (1873-1954)

That is the "Thought for the day" that shows on my blog today! It seems like I am just a writer, and not an author yet.

If that is what a writer is, m happy being one, coz I would never like to destroy my work... :P
Any authors here... ??? :-/

Thanks :)

I scribbled something called Musings a few days back. Got lovely responses from my dear friends.... here's something I have to say to each of them -

Hey Peenuts,
it is alright to say anything when u want to say it.. regardless of the place... U gotta learn that from me probably ;)
Well i think we all live with a fear - for the unknown, and compassion - for ourselves, and for others too. It is our choices in life that make us feel both fear and compassion. The decisions, the choices we make, make us feel fearful coz our tomorrow depends on them. We are compassionate for ourselves for the choices we probably did not make and at times even for choices we make....

Dear Shadows,
what do i say to u? U've said everything... why does black seem so attractive at times? And at others why does it tend to be the dullest color that God made? It is so hard being human, i wonder what it would be like being God... it is always questions that I have for u... coz u think like me when I am not able to do so for myself... thanks for being there...

Thanks Adi,
I am so thankful to all u guys who visit my blog and take time to read what I've written out of the blue. Not only read, bt understand and share it with me.
U r right Adi, in saying that life is like an amazing novel. The difference is not only in our acceptance of the author's thoughts who's written some novel that we read, bt also in the actors. It is us who are playing the main part in this amazing novel called "Life"! And portraying characters is always difficult, i think. And thinking about portraying a character for years to go..........

U r also right in saying that we do not live every moment of our life. The want of what is not makes us human. I too believe in living life to the fullest. And I try it too. I succeed at times, and at others I don't.
I wish that you reach where u have to go... And that your realization isn't possibly hard to implement - it is a matter of will power - probably the most powerful tool God gave us to WIN all the battles that he makes fight; and of faith - in God, in yourself, and in your beliefs.
We all have a long way to go - "Where" - depends entirely on us and "How" too.

Some words, probably anyone reading this would identify it with themselves ... just like I do as I pen them down...

"masroof rehte hain hum zindagi ke safar mein
kuch jaane se raaste kuch anjaane se hote hain
ki aaj yahan par hai ek woh mod nazar aa raha
chal padhein is par ki chhod dein yeh sochte hain......"

Trying to use a new color for my further lines makes me feel like wanting a change - but with life itself changing its face every single second, what change am I wanting now?

My best wishes to all those who are trying to live a life in a lifetime and a lifetime in a life. I know how much it takes to try to live a life in a lifetime and a lifetime in 1 life..... It might be hard but not impossible. Our task is to "believe and act as if it were impossible to fail..."

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Walking alone....

खाली खाली सा यह कमरा लग रहा है
आज हारा हुआ महसूस कर रही हूँ,
धूँआ सा है आस पास
उस धूँए में कहीं खो गयी हूं।

बारिश की बूँदों की तरह
आँसू की लडी बह रही है
वो कागज़ भी लाचार महसूस कर रहा होगा
जिसकी स्याही इस पानी में घुल रही है।

ढूँढ रही हूँ किसिको आस-पास
कोई जो मेरी दुविधा को सुल्झाये
कोई सुनने के लिये आज होता पास
कोई जिसे दोस्त कह सकूँ।

गुम हूँ मैं ऐसी दुनिया में
ना कोई पूछता है ना कोई सुनता है
शायद हम में ही होगि कोई कमी
इतने दोस्तों के दोस्त होकर भी हम तन्हा हैं।